Career or Family
I don’t believe it has to be one or the other like that terrific movie, The Turning Point. I believe you can have both. I am finding life to me more like what Christopher McCandless, discovers near the end of, Into The Wild, “Happiness only real when shared.” The first half of my career it was all about, Career. I identified so strongly with, Sam in that wonderful play, Career, by James Lee. I found something noble in living my life like Sam or Van Gogh where its all about the art. That’s how it was with me and both of my ex-wives knew it. I didn’t really think that I could have both, it was one or the other. I guess I couldn’t have both while, I was chasing my art and working other jobs to pay the bills. Once I made it, (financially and artistically) then I would be able to have both a Career and a Family. I identified with Sam, so strongly that I believe I was putting it out there that I will never succeed until the end and it was becoming a self-fulfilling prophesy. There was something I respected in that play, that made me want to be like Sam, believing in his art and finally getting his name up in lights on Broadway when he was older. I believe now, that I made my career, go that way, because that’s what I expected. Well I no longer think the same way. I am so fortunate that I have my Son Matthew, in my life. He is my family and I have a career that I find exciting, doing what I love, Teaching, Writing & Acting. And you can too.
This is something I’ve been thinking about the past few days. Trying to work on my acting, along with other artistic outlets, and still allow myself that time to spend with family and friends. It feels like if I spend too much time focusing on one side, then I’m robbing the other one of my time as well. It can get very overwhelming. Thank you for sharing!